Monthly Update

You ever get that feeling like everything is going ok... Like, toooo ok? You feel comfortable for a minute or two and then your skin starts to crawl. Some people might call it paranoia, I call it 'The Way Things Are'.

I guess it was two or three weeks ago things started to get weird. On consecutive days, my monitor exploded and sent sparks and flame all over my bedroom, my car faked a seized engine (though it's still inoperable because the vehicle isn't worth the cost to repair the real engine trouble it's having), and I had the worst allergic reaction to a still unknown substance in my life, bad enough a friend and my sister wanted me to get medical attention (I just wound up eating half a bottle of benadryl and slept it off). Aside from the beautiful real-life interpretation of a Shakespearean comedy of errors, it made me realize things are never as good as you think, and Murphy was right. At least nothing ultimately important or life threatening has happened to me. But every time I try to engage my brain I just wind up making myself more confused and/or paranoid. Maybe I just need to find some sort of spiritual exercises that don't clash with my fierce distaste of all things religious. I'm not a big fan of holistic things, either. Guess I'm fucked, so I should try to get back to sleep.