Expression

I don't want to write. I don't feel words right now. I don't want to draw, I've never been able to translate my thoughts into lines. I want to shoot photos. But it's almost 3 am. I should bundle up and head out into the cold with my camera, but, I've done so little low-light shooting I'm not sure it'd be worthwhile. I want a digital camera so I don't have to drive around and wait for someone else to mess with my negatives to find out if any of the shots I took got what I wanted them to. Hooray, this is a short week at work, because I'm going to Virginia on Friday. Right now I can barely remember why. It almost seems like this trip has gone from pursuing a question to fufilling an obligation. That's fucked up, and, I'm an ass. I need to create something before I start destroying things.